Bits of Wisdom and Gratitude

I detest a stagnant blog, so here is a new post. Our lives are definitely filled with unusual material to blog about, but in my post-op state (To answer the inevitable questions: laminectomy, discectomy, related spinal headache and possible spinal fluid leak) I am unable to even lie on my back to make use of a laptop. So picture me manually punching in the letters of this post on my iPod touch. Side note: I highly recommend these fun gadgets to both the bedridden and not. Thank you, dear husband, for so unselfishly giving me yours so you had no choice but to buy a newer version for yourself. What sacrifice! :)

Motherhood- when can I get back to it?! It's been nearly three months since my back gave out and I was rendered unfit to pick up my baby. I miss being a mommy. Everyday I pray, "I promise I won't complain of another poopy diaper, just help me be well enough to be a mother to my kids." I am an emotional basketcase these days, but found some good laughs and inspiration in Kerry Blair's Counting Blessings. Here's some keepers:

"If you believe that feeling bad or worrying long enough will change a past or future event, then you are residing on another planet with a different reality system." - William James

"Worry not about the possible troubles of the future; for if they come, you are but anticipating and adding to their weight; and if they do not come, your worry is useless; and in either case it is weak and vain, and a distrust of God's providence." - Hugh Blair

I also crave to publicly express gratitude to the dozens of friends and family that have made dinners, cared for the girls, sent encouraging cards and balloon bouquets, lost hours of sleep to help, prayed for our welfare, or done us another act of service. Yet everytime my mind settles on the issue, I am paralyzed by tears of gratitude. Thank you, everyone.

With fear of jinxing myself, it looks like things may be taking a turn for the better. With some luck our family may be able to spend at least a week all under the same roof before Janson's upcoming rotation. In our case distance does make the heart grow fonder!